#ok ok I feel a lot better know I’m gonna go home and chill now and drink tea and write and be happy EEEEEEEE 💕✨🌸

[twistedappletree]

back from mammo/ultrasound and….

ALSJAKJDAJJDAKJDK

🎉 I DONT HAVE CANCER 🎉

funny stuff about what I do have under the cut tho bc the doctor was lowkey hilarious lmao

So basically, I have a shiiiiiiiit ton of fibroadenomas. SO many that the doctor said he’s never seen that many in his entire career and that I set a new world record LMFAO

There’s a few complex cysts but literally nothing concerning so I just have go back in 6 months and repeat the process to make sure none of the cysts or fibroadenomas are growing/changing.

Also I didn’t have enough to pay for even the discounted price for uninsured patients (shit was like $800 like P L S 😭) and since the discounted price is only offered on the day of service, I have to pay the full $1600. BUT I can pay it in increments whenever I can. And also I just really give a fuck because??????

I DONT HAVE CANCER AAAAAHHHHHH 😭😭😭🥹🌸

[jade-jini]

My brain still has some g!p loser virgin Minjeong left so I need to keep talking do not shut me up.

(I need her deep in my *cars collapse*)

Ok clearly she ain’t a virgin anymore lmao but still she’s not experienced at all. You’re surprisingly patient with her:’) guiding her through the basics of it. She was very eager to learn how to eat you out. So when she first did it it was both messy but also so good. “So this is your clit, right?” She asked softly touching it with the tip of her finger, lying in between your legs nsfndk loser. “Yes. Remember what I told you?” “The more I stimulate it the better you feel?” “Good puppy. Do you wa- holy fuck Minjeong!” You couldn’t even finish and she was already licking it up and down 😭 like yeah it felt nice but she was being so messy and impatient you actually had to grab her hair and slowly guide her. Which ended up in you basically fucking her mouth. That day she was so focused on ONLY eating your pussy and using her fingers. She wanted to get better at it and make you proud :( so she kept going until the only reason you were grabbing her hair was because of how good she was making you feel.

“Is that good y/n?” She’d ask while looking up at you and smdnfk those puppy eyes I’m telling you. “So good puppy, you’re so good…” you’d moan while patting her head and that made her so happy.

Minjeong is such an impatient puppy when she’s inside you, so you teach her how to have a less erratic pace, grabbing her hips and guiding her when she’s the one on top, or fucking yourself on her cock when she’s behind you (which she loves even after she gets better). And of course, the more you fuck the better she got at not.. coming so fast dnndkd.

You can’t be too good and patient tho, you torture her a bit and that’s where cockwarming comes in the picture 😌( mainly the reason I wanted to continue writing shdjdjw). You’d take her home after class and since you’ve been teasing her all day, she assumes you guys are gonna have a lot of fun once you’re at your place and she’s so excited already lol. So when you explained to her that you were gonna watch a movie she was a little confused but, nonetheless was ok with spending time with you. Oh but poor thing.. didn’t know what was coming (spoiler alert: not her for a while). You guys were chilling at the sofa, when suddenly you started unzipping her pants which she willingly took off, silently grateful to know all that teasing wasn’t for nothing. When you also took yours off and slowly sat on her shaft, she was quick to grab you and start moving you up and down on it and Omg it felt so good you almost forgot what the plan was. Ah yeah- cockwarming. “Wait-Omg wait minjeong.” “Hm? what’s wrong y/n? Did I hurt you?” She asked worried and immediately stopped sndjdjf why did she have to be so cute all the time. “No no, but there’s something I want us to try today ok? Just stay still, don’t move.” And so she did. But you see, being inside you and not being able to move was so hard for her that not even 20 seconds went by and she was already asking you “w-what do I do now? When can I move?” “Once the movie is done. But you’re gonna go through the whole almost 2 hours without coming, ok?” “..What?!” She gulped. Wdym not coming?! What did she do? Jeongie didn’t understand if this was some type of punishment because nothing sounded crueler than that. You quickly turned around, now facing her and grabbed her face to softly explained to her that she didn’t do anything wrong. You used the excuse of “this will help you last longer”. And she doesn’t have the brain to fact-check on that so she just trusts you 😭. She just wants to make you feel good so she’ll do whatever you ask her for even if it was something as hard as this.

Ofc you didn’t make it easy for her tho. You didn’t only move a little bit throughout the movie, but also left little kisses and praise her from time to time. She’d only hug you closer to her and whimper, trying her best not to lose it. After a little more than an hour tho she was already begging you to please let her come lol and you almost gave in but no! She could hold it in a little longer. She wanted to prove she was your good girl right? So she better behave. Poor girl almost looked in actual pain, sobbing against your chest while she hugged you, whispering how good your pussy felt and how much she needed to come inside it and ughhhh- the rest of the movie was as painful for her as it was for you. Once it was over tho you made sure to reward her and ride her so good ‘till her legs were shaking dndkfnjd. (The pic of minjeong sitting down with that dark shirt-).

She gets touchy too 😳 whenever she gets horny she goes behind you and holds you by the waist, her hand dangerously getting closer to your boobs, but if it’s in public you just look at her, daring her to actually do it. Ofc, she doesn’t 😭 so she just groans and stays holding you. If you’re alone tho she will grab them and get your ass right against her already hard dick, silently begging you for some attention. When y’all fucking her hands will travel everywhere; from spanking your ass, to grabbing your legs, playing with your boobs, grabbing you by the neck 😩specially when she’s behind you, holding you closer and closer to her and you can be sure sometimes you’ll have marks on your skin.

teaching her not only how to pleasure you, but also teaching her things she could do while you’re both far from each other 🙊. A lot of phone sex. Making her masturbate for you either on FaceTime or simple call, talking her through it. If it’s regular call then you’d tell her to describe exactly what she was doing for you. She does it but gets so lost in pleasure she ends up mumbling and moaning. “Hmmgh y/n… I need you here.. I m-miss you so much.. please..”. Also controlling when she comes. Making her touch herself fast then slow then fast again and once you finally tell her to come for you she makes a complete mess in her hand. Telling her to clean it for you and to show you 😳 she looks so hot doing it it makes you fantasize about if you were the one with the dick and how you’d make her suck you off- I’m losing myself rn one second one second.

So yeah anyway girlie ends up becoming so good at fucking you 😳 and she’s so proud of herself.

“You’re such a good fucktoy, just mine. Aren’t you, puppy?”

“Yes y/n, only yours…”

[miffysrambles]

hi! Feel free to not respond, but currently by dog is really sick and has this huge tumor and I know I’m gonna have to put him down soon and it really sucks, but your writing has made this a bit better so could I possibly request Sun Wukong and/or Macaque x reader with a dog? Like how would they react and would they like-call themselves the dogs parent or stuff like that? Feel free not to of course!

Oh my goodness, I'm so sorry for the late response anon (this ask has been sitting in my inbox for some time now). But I hope you're still around and enjoy!

Wuong and Macaque with an S/O who has a dog

Wukong:

Gods, Wukong LOVES your dog.

You’ll be making a snack for the two of you and you’ll just be hearing the monkey man giggling in the next room as the two play a classic game of tug of war.

You thought it was cute, at first. 

When you realized it was with your sweater, you put an end to it real quick. 

Now in his defense, he didn’t even notice!

Totally calls himself dad to your dog, he spoils the shit out of them.

AVOID PET STORES AT ALL TIMES!

“Hey peaches, you think (dog name) needs this?”

Wukong, no your dog does not need 12 new toys they barely plays with the five new ones you got them at home…

You sometimes bring your dog to Flower Fruit mountain for a small walk and visit which Wukong is ecstatic about.

 The dog is strictly only allowed inside the house for their safety but you three definitely do late night cuddles on his couch. 

You laying against Wukong on one side and your dog resting its head on the other in his lap.

You open your eyes to look uo and see Wukong gently petting them and gently scratching behind their ear with upmost care. 

You smile and close your eyes once more, falling asleep with his arm wrapped around you.

Macaque:

Hilariously, Macaque was kinda nervous around your dog at first.

He won’t admit this to you of course (gotta look all tough in front of you0 but you could tell by the freeze and twitch of his tail. 

Didn’t help the your dog was jumping up at his legs. 

“W-Woah, hey there little guy…”

He tries so hard to keep his cool, cut him some slack. 

However, spending more time with them, he becomes more chill and used to it.

He loves your dog after some time, he even offers to take care of them while your at work.

While your on break, he walks them to your work with some food to surprise you.

“Hey sugar plum, surrrprise.” His smooth voices calls out to you as you sat on a park bench outside your work. 

You smile and he kisses your cheek, your dog barking out for you in excitement and you three spend your limited time together. 

Lots of dates where your dog tags along, one including going to the dog park. 

Macaque was in his human disguise but you could still tell he was a bit unnerved being around so many dogs.

You squeezed his hand, assuring him he was ok and you were there with him.

You couldn’t see it but his tail would’ve flailed like crazy from that.

[ibelivedthehypeam]

Izzy stradlin smut

I’ve been stuck with my brother all day, sat meaninglessly in the studio waiting for him to finish. However the part I didn’t mind was getting to see his friend, who was incredibly attractive.

I had only realised it a few weeks back. The five of them had arranged to meet at axl’s and that’s when I ended up actually getting to know them. Slash was chill, the guy would sit there, smoke and play guitar. Duff and Steven were also incredibly cool guys, duff was almost like a mum while Steven ran around with parts of drums. It took me a while to realise Izzy was there, he was the quietest of the five, he was pretty distracted by his guitar and I couldn’t help but let my eyes linger. He had brown eyes and his hair was dark, he was pretty fucking hot.

Since then we had shared a conversation or two ever so often. If it was about my day or what he was playing it always left me smiling. As we got closer I found myself thinking about him more and more, how his lips would feel if we kissed or how his dick-.

“Hey, you ok.” I was suddenly dragged out of my thoughts by Izzy who looked strangely at me putting his hand on my shoulder.

“Yeah, I’m cool just thinking about something Axl said.” I replied thinking quickly to avoid any embarrassment.

He looked convinced and began to show me something he was practicing on his guitar. I complimented what he had wrote as Axl shouted for him by the door. Izzy excused himself walking to whatever Axl wanted to shout at.

After a while I heard Axl say “seriously man don’t, she’s my-!” And some more mutters of annoyance. Steven elbowed duff to get his attention and sniggered at Izzy walking back into the room sheepishly. He smiled at me before getting a beer from the fridge.

“This is so boring, can’t we just watch a movie!” Steven exclaimed putting his drum sticks down and finishing his drink. Slash shrugged and agreed, duff contemplating which movie we could watch. I gave some ideas and Izzy quickly agreed it was a better idea. Axl groaned and thought they could use a break.

Soon enough the six of us were settled in the cramped front room. Duff and slash on the two seater, me and Izzy on the other, Axl on a arm chair and Steven laying in the floor with my cat. After a lot of arguing we had decided on Jaws.

When we had got about half way into the movie Slash had fallen asleep, duff left to see his girlfriend and Izzy had wrapped his arm around my waist his other hand finding mine under the blanket. Axl turned round and glared at Izzy who held me tighter and I giggled, he huffed and turned round again. He moved his hand holding mine to itch his shoulder and my hand slipped down to his thigh. I stroked his leg and circled my thumb. I could feel his heart rate increase as I brought my hand higher up his thigh, my finger between his denim legs. He placed a silent kiss on my shoulder, I looked round to see his eyes dark and his lips curling into a smirk. I checked to see if anyone was watching, Axl nodding to sleep, Slash still laying down on the settee asleep and Steven still immersed in the film. Looking back to Izzy I brought my face closer to his, looking down to his thin, pink lips. He had moved in placing a soft peck to my lips, darting his eyes to Axl, before kissing me again. This time more passionately, slipping his tongue into my mouth. His hand held my cheek, tilting my head to kiss me harder. We pulled away at a grunt from somewhere, both our heads shooting to slash who was stood up laughing his head off.

“What the hell are you laughing at slash?” Axl asked day properly in the chair again. Steven giggled still watching the movie, unaware of what was going on.

“Oh nothing much, gonna head home now.” Slash replied winking at us and pulling Steven up. He and Steve agreed on getting a cab back together.

“You going Iz?” Axl asked obviously wanting to go to bed and so he didn’t have to ‘supervise’ me and Izzy. He moved his hands away from me and stretched rubbing his eyes, I thought he was going.

“Nah i’ll watch the end of this, you can go to bed, I won’t kill her.” Izzy yawned, I visibly grinned and Axl agreed, to tired to care anymore. As soon as he had disappeared into his room izzy looked over at my smirking.

“Your pretty yn.” He admitted and stroked my head before kissing me again. This time it was more needy, I wrapped my hands around his neck and he brought his round my waist. Biting down on his lip, he groaned and I ran my tongue round his mouth.

“You know we could watch this movie in my room.” I suggested smirking at him, seeing his eyes darken with lust. I grabbed his hand and walked up the stairs to my bedroom. As soon as we walked through the door I joined our lips together and he walked us back towards my bed.

He swiftly took his shirt of as I sat on his lap, moving our hips together as he licked and kissed up my chest ridding of my top. I felt him growing beneath me, feeling his desire build as he fiddled with my joggers, pulling them down along with my underwear. Grabbing at his sides I found his belt, pulling it through and tossing it somewhere to find in the morning. I palmed his hard and I saw his eyes close and his small moan at the contact. Unbuttoning his jeans I found myself desperate for his touch, pulling them away he stroked himself slightly.

“Your so gorgeous, you cool?” He asked into my shoulder I gripped him and nodded as he entered me in one thrust. He was thick, I felt so full, both of us letting out moans of pleasure at the sensation. He started to move causing me to kiss and bite his neck, as he praised me.

“Your doing so well, gotta keep quite sweetheart, Axl would kill me if he knew what a good girl you were being for me.” He groaned. Hearing him whisper dirty things into my ear, thrust so deep into me and feeling his rough hands on my hips sent me close to the edge.

“Harder Iz.” I moaned and he did, hitting the spot over and over again, as I felt my orgasm approaching. He looked into my eyes as I felt myself go, and feel him do the same. He pulled out, heavily breathing, still kissing my neck and stroking my sides. He got his shirt and a towel, covering me up and giggling with me.

“That was a good movie.” He joked putting his arms round me, as we lay in bed wrapped up in each other.

“Axl is gonna kill you.” I mentioned with a giggle and he chuckled.

“I’ll deal with him in the morning.”

Authors note - hiya, hope you liked this I found it fun to write. 😀

[no-see-um-incorrect]

Relapse

If the title didn’t give it away ⬇️

(⚠️⚠️TW Self harm,⚠️⚠️ mention of suicidal thoughts⚠️⚠️blood⚠️⚠️angst⚠️⚠️. if you feel as though you are not in the mental space to read this. Do not read it. you are free to come back when you are in a better headspace. just please stay safe💛) i’m also aware that the writing in this one is kind of weak. 

It felt like any Tuesday. Casper woke up to their alarm, rolled over, hugged their sleeping boyfriend gave him a kiss on the shoulder, then got up and got ready for work. And the day went on as normal…..almost.

Casper hadn’t heard from Charlie the whole day. But it was Tuesday. Tuesday was payday for a lot of people. sweet Pete’s was usually busy on Tuesdays. But something was off Casper just couldn’t put their finger on what.

*Buzz buzz* 

There is no caller ID just a phone number with a familiar area code 

“hello?”

The voice on the other line was raspy an older sounding man, a voice Casper recognized well 

“Pete? Is everything OK? Did something happen?” “I was wonderings if yous knew where Charlie was. Little punk didn’t show up for work today”

His words sent a chill down Caspers spine. They knew it. They knew something was off.

“I haven’t heard from him all day…I thought he was busy at work…” ��yeah well if you see him, tell him I’m gonna write his little ass up for missing work without notice”

And just like that, the call ended as quickly as it began. Casper hurried to their bosses office and said they had to leave early.

“come on Chuckie pick up the phone!”

They tried calling him on the drive home But.

“Dammit Chuck pick up!”

No answer 

They quickly pull into the driveway and run to the door fiddling with their keys as they go. Briefly, looking up to see Charlie’s skateboard still on the porch. 

once they walk in, they start calling his name 

“Charlie?!….Charlie?! baby is everything all right?!”

“not in the kitchen….not in the dining room or living room…..” they say. scanning each room 

They hear a noise. A noise that they are all too familiar with. 

“Chuckie…?” They say softly, leaning against the door to the master bathroom. 

“don’t come in..*Sniffle*”

A small wave of relief washes over Casper, hearing Charlie’s voice 

“Charlie…. are you OK?”

No response 

“Charlie baby. I promise I won’t be mad I just wanna know that you’re OK”

Casper sits on the floor and leans their back against the door 

“I don’t want you to see me like this cas….”

Casper gently presses the side of their face against the door 

“sweetheart there is no side of you that would ever make me turn away. i’m worried about you. I want to know you’re safe”

They hear the click of the door unlocking 

“i’m not gonna come in until you say it’s OK”

After a minute, Charlie slowly opens the door.

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Charlie was sitting with his back to the tub, his eyes were bloodshot, and his face was stained with tears, his arms were nearly covered with blood.

“oh Charlie…”

Casper slowly moves closer 

“i’m sorry cas…”

Casper cups his cheek in their hand.

“Shhh shhh you have nothing to apologize for….”

A tear rolls down Charlie’s face, feeling Casper’s hand on his cheek. His hands start to shake, and Casper can hear his breathing getting heavy. 

“I didn’t want to do it *Sniffle* I didn’t know what else to do I I just w wanted it to stop-*sniff*” 

“I know. I know baby”

Casper wraps their arms around him as he sobs into their shoulder. After some tears. Charlie starts to compose himself. 

“Baby…you don’t have to talk about it right now you don’t have to tell me anything but…I need to clean them..are you OK with that?”

Casper held Charlie’s hands and looked down at his wounded arms 

“and I need to see it”

Charlie looked at them and with a heavy sigh he nodded his head and pulled a bloodstained razor blade from his pocket.

“you don’t need this anymore”

They put the razor blade in their coat pocket and gesture for Charlie to sit on the toilet lid. He stands up and sits while Casper grabs a warm washcloth, and begins cleaning his cuts.

“it just doesn’t make….it doesn’t make any fucking sense” Casper hummed in response. Grabbing a bottle of hydrogen peroxide from under the sink. 

“I have loving parents, an amazing partner, and a pretty good job..why the fuck do I keep having slip ups like this?!”

Casper puts a hand on his cheek, and looks him in the eyes softly 

“Charlie…you could have the whole world in your hands and this could still happen. baby relapse is never a pretty thing….but it’s something that happens. it happens a lot….it’s a sad fact to admit, but it’s true”

Casper finishes up bandaging Charlie’s arm. Once they’re done, they hold Charlie’s face in their hands and give him a kiss on the forehead. Charlie lays his head in their chest. as tears start filling his eyes. 

“it makes me feel so fucking worthless…*Sobs* I don’t know what the fucks wrong with me!”

His voice is raspy from crying. Casper chokes down the tears from seeing their boyfriend like this. 

“Hey now *Sniffle* you’re gonna listen here  Charlie and you gonna listen good. You’re gonna tell that little bastard voice in your head to fuck off. And I’m gonna put a new one there! NOTHING is wrong with you! you are not broken *Sniffles* And you sure as HELL are not worthless” 

“Every time I Did something wrong! Every time I SAID something wrong, it all come flooding back….it won’t shut up it’s just keep saying it over and over and over…maybe I would be better off D-”

Casper holds Charlie’s face and looks him in the eyes, tears running down their cheeks.

“Don’t you fucking say that……you deserve to be ALIVE, and you deserve to be HAPPY. and I will tell you that till the day my heart stops fucking beating!…I will dry up every tear, I will kiss every cut, I will sit on this bathroom floor with you and let you cry out your pain until the end of time! So you can realize that!”

Casper holds onto Charlie tightly. As if he was going to blow away if they didn’t. They sit there like that wrapped in each others embrace Casper, giving soft kisses to the top of his head here and there. 

“…. I love you Casper”

“I love you too Charlie..and I’ll never stop”

Casper pick’s Charlie up much to his surprise. And walked him over to the bedroom and lays him on the bed. they then go into the closet, pulling out every soft pillow and blanket they can find. they set up the bed and get cuddled up.

“can I see your arm Chuckie?”

Charlie looks at them in confusion

“ya shouldn’t have to change the bandage yet. you just put it on there” 

He says, showing Casper his arm 

“you’re right I don’t need to change it yet”

Casper gently hold onto his arm and starts kissing it, starting at his wrist and stopping at his shoulder. Charlie looks down at them with a almost shocked expression.

“I said I would didn’t I?”

Charlie lunged forward and wrapped his arms around them. Casper returned this, and slowly started laying the both of them down. Casper hummed a familiar melody. As they slowly drifted off to sleep. 

Today was not a normal Tuesday. And that’s OK you’re going to have non-normal days. but it’s important to know that not every day will be like this abnormal Tuesday.



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It’s important to note that whenever I talk about stuff like this, I’m going off of my own situation’s and experiences Soooo if it’s different from your own experience..that’s because it’s Mine..

I think it’s really important to show all of the sides of someone’s mental health journey. So if the person seeing it is going through it, they don’t feel alone.

Thank you too @antipasto-the-theif

For giving me the feedback on posting this 

My DM‘s are open if anyone needs to talk 

Love y’all 





[knizuu]

Talk to me abt uhhh anything- Fang, Petey, OC, idc. ANYTHING U WANT💖💖

PLEASE IM GENUINELY INTERESTED IM NOT DOING THIS JUST CUS U LET ME- /gen

I get so nervous writing asks wtf

DUDE IM SO DUCKING HAPPY +omg same </33

COUGH well imma go in order lets go with the

FANG🫧….

SIGHH I LOVE HIM SM. tbh I see how people react to the recent idw miniseries which left the Hooligan fans really sour </33 to me, though, it wasn’t too bad?? I see how it works and honestly the only sad part to me is WHY DID HOOLIGANS BREAK UP AUH but im so used to “sonic canon ew” so like-I should’ve expected that sigh. So I can reason with how excited people headcannon/draw/make whatever of the guy it’s really cool since we all kinda agree? Like even with such a variety we all take the guy lovingly <33 which is sweet :> like its pretty chill-WHCIH IS FUNNY because Im actually really scared in small communities <- i made a post bout it once i-I EAT UP ANY FAN MADE FANG CONTENT FR i love all fangs really [so far] ^ ^ tbh even my school knows that-I did pottery of him, drawn him, spoke of him, my teacher saw a drawing of Fang I did and HE QUOTE: I was looking for that [SIR I GET IT IM PREDICATABLE/silly]

PETEY💠

Ok as much as heartfelt I feel about Fang-Petey is just some other freak of nature my family knows. I’m NOT EVEN JOKING-MY MOM SANG ABOUT HIM WHILE MAKING LUNCH/GEN GEN GEN-cough. Idk why but ever since my brother [the first dog man fan obviously] inserted dog man into my family [by 1. SHOWING MY FANART/BOOKS TO MUM 2. LETTING ME SING THE MUSICAL ALL DAY LON-/positive fs] its been insane/sILLY because-who expected everyone to say “Papa Petey” [i do NOT know how some typo made mo-ok my mom has a Petey problem/sILY AGAIN] in the car-at home…NOT ME THATS WHO. WHY IS PETEY SUCH A NORMAL THING IN MY HOUSEHOLD/positive sigh

OC🌸

OKK well they are ALMOST a wasteland but I have an original story to bring some ocs to life ^ ^ [including-sigh vague mention-the space dog lady and red haired lady ocs i have :3] ESSENTALLY: I’m calling it Brink of Bryony!! [Bryony is about a flower but in plot idk a city??] it’s just a human loser [red haired lady MAYBE] meeting alien folk [Cordella is there…i showed her ONCE] like my self insert hehe [Norolist] because OH NO beeg mister evil guy wants to take over Earth and this NICE alien people gonna protect it! That’s the entire thing, very unserious lmao. Pyrexavul is my precious <33 I don’t think I shared him?? I’ll share em all sometime hehe im too lazy LMAO. So yes yes I’ve been into making that story recently :> !!

ANYTHING🦐

OK SO my Luxury AU has been MANIFESTING MOI cuz i decided: why yes I WILL make a fic bout it!! Yknow just remaking the lore[cough this means me rewriting the first book of DogMan] and putting some stuff into one work ^ ^’ SO FAR I’m really getting into the vibes but what’s crazy is how I turned what I THOUGHT was oughta be a comedy-to a tragedy. No like I KNOW IM GONNA WRITE CUTE STUFF I WILL I JUST-….also might’ve included grief, addiction, ETC I dont even know how I got there 🙂‍↔️but it’s been fun! Especially since it makes me go down a nice study check with me lmao [I’ve been learning the medical field, laws, how media handles stuff, types of _, etc] hehe rubbing my hands together imma be so happy to write it all hehe and with that I’m learning about my characters a lot better! I thought of it more one noted because its a good start but now im actually learning more bout em :0 !! Love reworking stuff, redesigning, it’s been a huge part of me since idk when ^ ^’

COUGHHHH i think that all works out!! TYSM FOR ASKING I CANNOT EXPRESS THE WHIMSY I FEEL RN <33

[mannylikessims]

The True Story of the Villareal Family [3.13]

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It was the day where everything was going to get better, because Luna was about to start the next chapter of her love story.

She was on her way to surprise her crush in person, now that she knew the identity of her mystery knight. It was gonna be, like, so romantic.

Sofia’s intel checked out – there was Yuki, Luna’s mystery knight, sitting in a corner of the café surrounded by books on this fine Sunday.

It was game time.

With zero chill, Luna grabbed the chair next to the blue-haired girl and plopped herself down in one smooth motion.

“Yuki,” she said.

The girl looked up with a jolt and hiccuped.

“I know your secret!” Luna blurted out, grinning ear-to-ear. “I know it’s you in the knight suit!”

Yuki panicked and started hiccuping frantically. “Hic. Hic. Hic! Oh Watcher, was it obvious?”

“Well, kinda,” said Luna. “I mean, how many people walk around in suits of armor–“

“Oh Watcher – hic! I’m so embarrassed,” Yuki groaned into her hands, still hiccuping. Good gravy, this girl sure hiccuped a lot.

“I feel like an idiot. Like a weird creep. Hic! I don’t know what I was – hic – thinking!”

On top of the hiccuping, Yuki started to cry.

“Um, it’s ok, Yuki…” Luna grimaced.

Well, plum. This was not going well. Luna’s romantic fantasy didn’t include Yuki hiccuping and crying into her hands, and she deeply, deeply regretted surprising her knight in person without asking her first.

“Uh, I’m really sorry for dropping in on you like this,” she said awkwardly. “What do you, like, want to do?”

Tears and snot were dripping down Yuki’s face and pooling in her hands, and her shoulders were shaking with hiccups.

The girl could barely look at Luna. “Ugh, I don’t – hic – know, maybe you could talk to him for me?” she said.

Huh?

“Wait, talk to who?” Luna frowned.

“Hic! Hugo, your brother,” replied Yuki, appearing to calm down a little, aside from the hiccuping. “I mean, now that you know I have a huge crush on him – hic! – and was stalking him at the Von Haunt Estate, too shy to say anything…”

Hold on, Yuki wasn’t her knight? She was some other knight from the Von Haunt Estate crushing on her brother? So who was the knight texting Luna??

“Yuki,” said Luna solemnly. “Who else is in your knight club?”

The girl shrugged. “I don’t know – hic. It’s an anonymous club. But what’s weird, is that our leader hasn’t called a meeting in over a week, I wonder why…”

And just like that, Luna was back to square one, with no leads on the identity of her mystery knight.

Whomp whomp.

But, on the bright side, Luna found herself with the opportunity to bestow kindness upon the socially awkward bumpkins of Windenburg.

“You know what, let me text my brother,” she said. “I’ll put in a good word for you.”

“You would do that for me?” squeaked Yuki with a hiccup.

“Yes,” replied Luna, texting Hugo to come immediately. “I’m all about charity.”

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[araedi]

I promised an update on my life/activity and stuff, so here it is! I’ll stuff it all under the cut but the tldr is I’m still here just on a super slow. I’m always down for chats and interactions as long as you’re cool with that!

I’m quite private about myself online so gonna keep this brief (lol watch me do anything but), but I feel like I keep circling back to apologising every few months for not being here enough then punishing myself over it when I’m not magically active again. It’s ultimately a hobby but I still feel bad that people writing with me could be feeling let down/ignored, so I wanted to drop this rather than keep on cycling the same apology until it feels hollow.

Life’s a Lot right now: I’m currently juggling two part time jobs, pretty much full household responsibilities for three people, night-school with essays, and an emotionally intensive placement as part of my training which also involves paperwork. Home life is also less than ideal (won’t go into details). On top of this, I have chronic health problems alongside chronic pain so most days I’m just crabby and exhausted; my mental health could be better but rn it just feels like I’m treading water to get to a place where I’ll have fewer commitments.

Ultimately rp and writing/creative stuff in general is part of how I unwind so I’ll always be around because this outlet is so rewarding, but as it stands I’m just so mentally and pysically drained that when I do have the time I’d rather just switch my brain off and play a bit of a game and have a sliver of social life than try to force out writing which is gonna be sub-par. I’ve been feeling kinda down about my writing for a bit and just feel like I’m giving the same post over and over, which also isn’t helpful!

As for my activity and where y’all fit: I’m still around and intend to be; still responding to DM’s on Discord or IM’s on here (unreliable though they are -_-) just being ridiculously slow with replies and popping reblogs or replies out just as and when. I’m not the type to up and quit, hell I’ve been on this blog for years so I’m going nowhere, just on the go-slow with the odd spurt of like 3-5 replies.

Of course I 100% understand if this weird unpredictable activity doesn’t fit for you: we all have different needs and expectations with this hobby and if me only showing up now and again isn’t gonna work that’s totally ok and you don’t have to follow or write with me: it’s been a blast knowing you!

If you’re chill to stick around and deal with my slowness, please know I WILL get to replies, even if it’s at glacial pace. I’ll post a shot of my tracker/a list up in the future so I can be 100% on what I owe and know you can always check in with me/hold me accountable for stuff. Please know you can ALWAYS drop stuff in my ask boxes, whether it’s memes or questions for muses or just crack. It always puts a smile on my face <3 if I received it I’ll reply to it, so barring just a few memes I have nothing else waiting!

This all being said I would LOVE to build up more long term/in-depth character relationships and sustained interactions over multiple threads. I love getting to know my rp partners beyond the muses – it’s just that right now it’ll take six times as long to get anywhere. My door’s open for any chats r.e. any muses here or on the multi.

If you need my disco handle just ask/reply here or whatever and I can send it; if you need to get in touch for any reason and can’t seem to get through to me, just send a ping to the bestie Benevolentgodloki c:

If you read all this and are ok with sticking around know that you have my undying love lmao; I know it isn’t easy trying to build anything with someone who only posts once in a blue moon so your patience is appreciated and I’ll always appreciate having people to come back to on here <33

[imichelle-l-rigby]

Reflections: Cillian Murphy’s Limited Edition

Series 3, episode 2

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*I am a music prof (predominantly classical vocalist), and I LOVE listening to Cillian’s music choices! That being said, sometimes I won’t like a song simply because of a vocalist (it’s a professional hazard - sorry!) 👩‍🏫

** The following are my own observations/opinions. We may not agree, and that’s ok! That’s what makes music fun! 😊

*** I wouldn’t say I’m well-versed in Cillian’s music preferences, but I do enjoy them (for the most part). I always wind up adding to my own playlists after listening to Cillian’s recommendations.

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And now for episode 2…

🎵 Set 1 (Gonna Be - Sun King)

Gonna Be: an interesting beginning! I like the layers of motivic play from low, mid, and high parts of the texture. Fun instrument and sound effect choices, as well!

Come Home: harmonies are dense, but so wholesome and satisfying. It reminds me of a lot of Americana material.

Sun King: I LOVE THE BEATLES SO UNIRONICALLY 😍😍😍😍. Also, Abbey Road had its birthday this past week! 😊

🎤Talking Break

“Blathering blindly”

“Bus stops along the way”

He sounds more chill this time than last week? His voice is giving serious ASMR vibes

“Treash”

His love of close harmonies is so valid 👌

That’s adorable him asking his dad about the faux Italian in “Sun King” 😂

🎵Set 2 (SpongeBob -

SpongeBob: I promise you that this is the last thing I think of in association with SpongeBob! 😅 while this is objectively good, it’s not my cup of tea. I do like that I can understand/follow the lyrics. Well done and well constructed.

Officina stellare: I like this! A fun, atmospheric piece.

I’m not sure why this and SpongeBob go together, but the juxtaposition is striking.

🎤Talking Break:

Italian pronunciation should be: oh-fee-chee-nah steh-lah-rey

“Brilliant atmosphere of doom” ok… way to bring down the vibe, Cillian! 😅

🎵Set 3 (Weird Lullaby - Nite Owl)

Weird Lullaby: I do enjoy some good, original jazz. Swing era, and an unorthodox use of scat. I looked up Babs, and I need to find more of his stuff. He’s got an enjoyable voice, and approaches harmonies in a beautiful way.

Nite Owl: even though this is also an “oldie,” it is a STRONG difference compared with the previous!!! But I like this - what a feel good song! Good use of what is now called a “twang” vocal technique (twang isn’t just for country music).

🎤Talking Break

Now I need to listen to Frank Zappa’s Jukebox…

Joke’s on you, Cillian! First time I listened to this I was NOT “headphoned up!” 😂 I know, I’m such a rebel! 😂😂 Jk I was too lazy to go get my AirPods

🎵Set 4 (Trees, etc. - A Slice of the Top)

Trees, etc: well, it’s certainly better/more enjoyable than “Revolution 9” - that is one trippy, scary song! But I’ll be honest, I expected more “sound directionality” when he said to “headphone up,” like when you can hear the direction of the sound change from left to right. Regardless, this is a cool concept piece.

A Slice Of The Top: more jazzy, for sure. I’m loving the different riffs! Something about it sounds like Afro-Cuban jazz, but idk why? Maybe it’s the background rhythms? Fun dissonant harmonies, though!

🎤Talking Break:

“There is some coherence… somewhere”

🎵Set 5 (Dr. Ring Ding -Jack Ruby)

Dr. Ring Ding: the intro is so weird 😅 but no, this is a cool song. Again, I always appreciate some good riffs/solos!

Jack Ruby: same artist!! Wow! And man, I just wanna dance listening to these songs!💃

🎤Talking Break

A Cork specific question!

I saw somewhere someone was asking what a “boogie” is supposed to mean. I *think* (?) it’s just a jam session or performance of some kind??? At lest that’s how I’m interpreting this story.

A pub called Snotty Joe’s?! 😂😂😂

Ejected from establishments 😂😂😂😂

Corkonians

“Brilliantly sound self”

🎵Set 6 (Gone Daddy Gone - Downtown Train)

Gone Daddy Gone: ok, this is a boogie, if I say so! The instrumental track is fun, though repetitive. The vocal line is fairly monotone. Idk why monotone songs work, but they do (Mr. Brightside is a great example of monotone done right)! And a marimba solo?! Yes, please! 🤩

Downtown Train: ok… Tom Waits’ voice is not my favorite. That being said, this is a good song. It’s not something I would listen to often because of the vocals, but it’s definitely got merit. And something about this is so nostalgic?

🎤Talking Break

Aretha!!!!! 😍😍😍😍😍

Yay archive material!!!

“Baby, baby, baby”

🎵Set 7 (Baby, Baby, Baby)

Baby, baby, baby: I have no words. Aretha has SUCH a lovely, effortless-sounding voice! And her songs are so soulful! Perfection. 💯

🎤Talking Break

Thoughts on Bill: he’s eclectic. But his description is vague and I wish he’d be more specific.

🎵Set 8 (Free’s - Weird Sisters)

Free’s: the melody isn’t ambitious (almost like a recitative), but his voice has a nice, rich quality to it! And the instrumentation is fun! Almost like a little jazzy flute riff along with atmospheric backing.

Weird Sisters: enjoyable song! Definitely enjoying the slow build in texture - well done.

As a voice teacher, I want to double check some vocal production techniques of his. I’m not sure if some of the vocal anomalies I’m hearing are purposeful or not. I think they’re done on purpose, but if not, he should go visit an ENT (the doctor, not the talking tree). TLDR: vocal health is important.

🎤Talking Break

Oh no… not more weird dude from Yorkshire 😅

I’m still so confused.

Ok… an introduction to the next artist.

🎵Set 9 (Micael)

Micael: I like this song a lot. Guitar is haunting, atmospheric, and repetitive. The other instrumental and sound effects in the back are nice additions! The vocal line and it’s layers just keep adding to the strangeness of this song. It’s a puzzle, and I think that’s why I like it - it keeps you on your toes!

🎤Talking Break

An exclusive! 🙀

Oooh… a book reading!

Comments on Jarvis: yes. Music is a magic trick! His French is good. *the tingle* - yep! So important!

“Pop music was real music as far as I was concerned” - I do disagree with this point. All music is real. You may not like it, but that’s a different subject 🤷‍♀️

🎵Set 10 (Black Magic)

Black Magic: why is this such a banger??? 😎😎😎 the bell line is a really nice touch, and I like it’s unique and unexpected melody compared to the more predictable vocal line and chorus.

🎤Talking Break:

“Thank you, Jarvis”

🎵Set 11 (Harmoniser Dub - The Smoke)

Harmoniser Dub: for something with “harmonize” in the title, there isn’t much harmonizing… (I know, I’m being purposefully obtuse) 😂 but a fun use of electronic sounds and non-vocal music!

The Smoke: I like this a lot more than the previous song! Lots of unexpected rhythmic pauses, and the mysterious vocal line is cool 😎 I like how this song is constantly morphing and borrowing styles to form a whole.

🎤Talking Break

Love remixes!

“No let’s not play the ident”

“Friends”

🎵Set 12 (Lwonsome Tonight - All Souls)

Lwonsome Tonight: now I have a complicated relationship with her voice. She purposefully sings in a thin, unsupported style and in a difficult portion of her range to create a specific haunting/folksy effect. I get it, but I don’t care for it. Good storytelling, and the vocal melody has an interesting contour.

All Souls: a strong contrast with the previous song! I like the electronic distortion and sub-pulses. 👍 the piano line is reminiscent of some of the driving pulses in funeral marches, so that’s a cool touch. I would say I prefer this song to the other one featured.

🎤Talking Break

I do love covers

🎵Set 13 (PinkMoon - Paprika Pony)

Pink Moon: I like this! Fun electronic components, and a pleasant head-dominant vocal production. This is such a vibe! ✨

Side note: isn’t AURORA featured in Frozen 2?

Paprika Pony: WHOA what a contrast! This is all clear-cut edges where the previous is all soft and fluffy. I know that has nothing to do with musical qualities, but that’s how I’m hearing it tonight.

I guess this set is tied together by alliteration? 😂

🎤Talking Break

“Anthemic” - I did not know that was a word!

🎵Set 14 (Stand Anthem)

Stand Anthem: I’m sorry, Cill, but I don’t like this. I enjoyed the first 20 seconds? It does have a “We Are The World” vibe, but it’s so repetitive. I think it’s the “stand” portions I dislike most - they don’t go anywhere. There’s no sense of build or momentum, and I’d really like to have that featured, especially in an anthem!

🎤Talking Break

Yay! Irish music!

Set 15 (Foreign Fleas)

Foreign Fleas: dude, this sounds dark and scary! 🫣 but that’s not a bad thing! I’m just a wimp 😂 but there are some nice, crunchy, dissonant harmonies in the vocal line. 👍

🎤Talking Break

“Brave and moving act of communication”

“Multitudinal”

What’s a Wally???

“Mind yourselves”

🎵Set 16 (Become the Earth - Distant Sky)

Become the Earth: oddly enough, I would describe her voice as “earthy” 😂 the simplicity of this song is nice. Heavily produced stuff is nice, but so is something like this. There’s still some post-production parts, but it’s not overwhelming. I did like that descending and ascending slide in the backing vocals! That was cool!!!

Distant Sky: Nick Cave is one of those artists who has such a gift when it comes to storytelling. However, his voice isn’t my favorite. That being said, what he adds instrumentally and through storytelling outweighs his vocal production (which is also a choice, I believe). And the juxtaposition of Nick and Else Torp is just wow! Overall, this is a beautiful song, and I’m happy the show ended so strongly with this gorgeous piece.

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And that’s episode 2! Honestly, I’m surprised I was able to get this out by Friday - this week has been hectic! 😂😅

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed! Feel feee to share/comment! 😊

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[bisluthq]

When you quit drinking, did you replace that with something else? Like for me, I realized on the weekends if I have something planned, even as late as 3-4 PM, I won't drink that day cuz it's like I know later I need to drive to this thing and go interact with people and be normal. But if I don't have any concrete plans, if it's just like "I need to go to the grocery store at some point today, and then clean my bathroom" then I'm like "why shouldn't I have mimosas at 9 AM?" and then I end up getting completely smashed and can't go to the store later and can't effectively do any chores. I realized that about myself so now I schedule things with friends during the weekends, preferably earlier in the day, so then when I get home I'm like "now it's time to meal prep and clean, and maybe I'll have a glass of wine in a few hours with dinner". Idk I've gotten a lot better at cutting down alcohol, but those wide-open days for me just inevitably lead to me drinking early, even if I've said and committed that I don't want to. It's only when other people are involved in the plans ("I have to meet them here at 1" or whatever, vs "I should go to the store at 11") that I can stop myself drinking. So it's annoying, because I KNOW I can, I just don't have the discipline or willpower to do it if I'm not gonna be directly letting someone down. I don't have anywhere to be til 8 PM tonight lol so even though I was like "it'll be a sober Monday! I'm gonna clean my bathroom and declutter my closer" I still ended up drinking 2 beers and a glass of wine while doing that

ok so this was a lot of how my drinking went dude. Your story is FUCK relatable to me. Except for in the pandemic where I literally wasn’t leaving my house for obvious reasons and then my bed for depression reasons that I do think were interrelated to the drinking (although I’ve been feeling very down the last few days but I’m powering through with no alcohol), I was not a daily drinker and I never got drunk like before important activities or things that I was looking forward to (a few times I did get drunk before social things I was dreading but that’s a separate thing). But if I was just chilling at home, either on weekends as you say or late at night, I would often wind up drinking.

I haven’t replaced it with anything like in terms of substances. I do see myself as California sober not sober sober so I’m open to edibles and shrooms but the thing with me is I’ve never been someone who overindulges in that. It’s something I only do like when I’m with friends who are into that or just with my boyfriend and we want a trippy night. I *have* replaced it with actively getting into other hobbies again and I have a habit tracker where I’ve put in all the things I like to do and if I’m bored I go into the app and look at what I could do today. So personally I’ve got running, yoga, gym class, drawing, Duolingo, reading, this blog, journaling, writing fiction, whatever DIY project I’m busy with in terms of my little furniture stuff, meditation, etc and I track how many minutes and hours a day I spend on all that stuff outside of work which I obviously don’t count in my fun little app. I also try call friends or text with friends if I’m feeling bored like that. And then I’ve been making more complicated food instead of just popping shit in the air fryer or ordering takeout. I have a guitar that I haven’t played in like 10 years that I’m considering starting to play again.

But also it’s just a habit right (well obviously not with people who have physical addictions and there you need to be careful how you come off it) so just��� break the habit. Again, I found quit lit really helpful and enjoyed the following books a lot: This Naked Mind, Not Drinking Tonight (it’s a bit heavy in psych babble so not for everyone but was really cool for me), Alcohol Lied To Me, Alcohol Explained, Soberful and maybe ESPECIALLY Sober Curious. There are a couple other really great ones but those stuck out to me. Also reading quit lit just helped me a lot because I was just like constantly drumming it into my head that I don’t need to/want to drink and that it’s the stuff that powers fucking rocket engines right like they use ethanol in rocket fuel lmao idk that I want to put that in my body (but I like Sober Curious in that maybe one day I might idk I don’t know that I want to say “I never ever will” or “I’m powerless over alcohol” because I’m def not lol - the problem is me not alcohol and not me in the sense that I’m like “broken” or whatever). So now I quite genuinely - for right now - don’t want to drink. I’m not holding myself back from it, I’m not counting days until I can again, I am not imposing moderation rules for me, I’m not looking for loopholes and I’m not promising lifelong abstinence. But I just don’t want to right now. We aren’t an alcohol free house - we’ve got fucktons of booze around - and my bf is still having his wine with dinner and beer when he does yard work and actually he even had a screwdriver for breakfast after he joined me for a run this past weekend because that’s what he wanted and I made him run pretty far. I’ve got it available. He is very proud of me and supportive of me not drinking but he also won’t like break up with me if I decide to start up again. I just… don’t want to. It’s better for me. I’m happier without… rocket fuel inside my body lmao because I’m a person and not a rocket ykwim?

This was very rambling but this topic makes me like that. My feeling is if you’re thinking about when you can and can’t drink, your relationship with alcohol isn’t healthy. Again to go back to my edibles thing, which I would have again quite easily, I’ve never in my life had more edibles than I intended to (I’ve had a max of two when my goal was to get fuck stoned and that’s what I did) and I also can’t tell you when I last had one or when I next will (I’ve got a bag of them in my desk but it’s sealed and it doesn’t tempt me). With alcohol I absolutely was counting sober days versus drinking days and how many drinks I had on a drinking day and whether or not a few glasses of wine “even counted” yk? And it was occupying a lot of time and space in my head, even when I wasn’t drinking. So that wasn’t like… healthy. Just removing it has given me a lot of energy and genuine desire to do a lot more hobbies that I like to do.

I also find I do a lot more chores lmao like I’ve always done my chores because I’m not a complete cunt but I often procrastinated with them and I get a lot of the regular ones I do done quicker and more frequently (like cleaning the kitchen), I do a lot more annoying ones more regularly (like taking stuff to the dry cleaners’ which I hated to do because I never drunk drove and like having out and about chores meant I can’t drink and if I did drink then I couldn’t take my stuff in lol so also getting my car washed was one of those too and also like washing my couches which I was doing maybe every two to three months but do every month since I quit drinking and that’s not about driving but it’s about not being able to sit on the couch when I undress it to wash it because obviously I sat on the couch drinking lol) and am more proactive with my DIY projects.

and in terms of what I’ve replaced it in terms of drinks, I’ve been making a lot of mixed drinks (so diet tonic, soda water, with a splash of cranberry juice and a splash of lime has been my favorite but I make other ones too), I drink Corona Zeros if we have people round, I’ve been making a lot more tea and coffee, and I’ve been drinking Diet Red Bull if I want “a buzz” lol. Also just sparkling water. And flavored sparkling water. Idk it’s been really easy once I decided on it and it keeps getting easier tbh not harder - like the first weekend I’d quit, we were sitting waiting for a takeaway and they didn’t have any AF beers on the menu and they advertised lassis but were out of them and I just didn’t order anything and felt a bit annoyed with my bf drinking his beer but that hasn’t happened again and idk I’ve been out and about and I’ve entertained at home and like I say it’s not that I don’t have it in the house or that I can’t say “cool look I did it for over 2 months so now I’m done like clearly I can stop whenever I want and now I want to start again” but I really just… don’t want to start again at this point.

Hope this helped a bit and just so you know your “boozestory” (as Ruby Warrington of Sober Curious calls it) is completely normal.

[imtheworst-imsorry]

I HAVE UPDATES!!! so my admissions team meeting went well, it was probably a lot more comprehensive than other people who’ve been in treatment before get, but this is my first time in any kind of ed treatment so they went through a lot of info. i’m still processing a lot of it, it takes my brain a while to catch up to important information, so i have a feeling this is all gonna hit me really hard within the next few days, but i do have (at least some) answers now and i feel better about having less uncertainty about some of that. they did stress that some of the details are really going to depend on how i’m doing while i’m here, both mentally and physically, but at least having some idea of how things are gonna go is helpful for me. one of the most important things i was worried about was a diagnosis, and ik some people would probably try to tell me that that’s not as important as the treatment itself, but i’m the kind of person that needs labels and names for my experiences so i feel more stable in my life and the situations i’m in, so it is very important to me. that’s why i pushed SO HARD to get the other mental health diagnoses and neuropsych testing for my autism and adhd. i have now officially been diagnosed with anorexia nervosa, binge/purge subtype, which i’m honestly pretty relieved by, idk why but i was super anxious that i’d get given something that would somehow make me feel more invalidated and make me feel less motivated to work on getting better, but this feels pretty ok, and it is the best description of my experiences (at least it’s what i felt was the most accurate before i even came here so i’m honestly quite relieved that my doctor agrees even though i never told him that’s what i thought i should be diagnosed with). i’m still really struggling with making myself complete my meals and snacks but i am doing it, purely bc i only get to stay off of wc/br and get to have my phone and laptop if i complete, and i need those to feel like i’m not completely isolated, but i know that there are gonna be days that are harder than others. i also have an idea of how long they think i’ll probably be here (4-5ish weeks from now) and i also have a rough goal from my dietician of where she thinks my target weight should be and where they want me to get to before i get discharged, but i’m not gonna specify that here rn bc i’m still processing that stuff and i feel like writing it here will make it hit harder or smth, idk. my parents had some good questions for the team, and they brought me a few more things from home, including some pictures of my dog, and we’re having a family therapy session on tuesday. apparently not a ton happens here on the weekends, and monday is memorial day so it’s basically a weekend schedule, too, which gives me plenty of time to think about all this but hopefully also plenty of time to find distractions so i don’t get too stuck in my own head. i’m gonna spend some time just decompressing from everything tonight, chill out a bit, one of the girls here has been teaching people to make friendship bracelets (she cranks them out so fast it’s super impressive, she came right up to me on my first day and asked what my favorite color was and handed me one, which was super sweet) i did one that ended up being more of a keychain bc the embroidery floss was too short to make a whole bracelet, but for a first attempt it came out really well. i’m still on bathroom observation, which is kinda embarrassing having someone stand there with the door cracked open while i pee but mostly it’s just super inconvenient bc i have to pee SO often bc they’re having me drink so much water and my body only gives me about 1-2 minutes of warning max when i need to go to the bathroom before it becomes an Emergency, so i spend an annoying amount of time hunting down someone to let me into the bathroom and doing the classic preschooler potty dance while i wait for them to come let me pee lol.

i think that’s all i’m gonna update for tonight unless i think of something else, i’m gonna rewatch as much of lotms as i can before they take my tech back for the night at 10

[webslingingslasher]

Aaah ok so so much has honestly happened recently and I have some updates on the Lara and Julie situation🧍🏻‍♀️

So yesterday I was out with Lara and Julie and we bumped into these guys that are in a couple of my classes and I have a massive crush on one of the guys that was there. He is like my perfect type and he’s really sweet, polite and just everything I want in a guy(and single🧍🏻‍♀️) but I’ve never perused it in any way because him and I sit together in classes and I don’t want anything bad to happen and for it to be awkward. So we all decided to stop for some coffee and I was sitting between him and his other friend and Lara and Julie were sitting across from us. And while we were talking Julie blurts out that I’ve had had a crush on this guy for so long and the table went dead silent and it was so awkward. So we all split the bill and went home and after I dropped Lara off at home and was on the way to drop Julie off I asked her why she would say what she did. And she claimed that it didn’t matter and that I was over reacting and I was trying so hard to tell her how terrible it made me feel and she kept ignoring everything I said, and I eventually just came out and told her that it wasn’t the first time she’s embarrassed me in front of guys and that i really don’t appreciate when she does it. She told me I was a liar and that she would never do such a thing to the point where I literally had to pull up texts in an old group chat with a couple other people(guys included) where she went out of her way to send really bad photos of me and tell all the people in it really embarrassing and sometimes untrue things about me. And she said that it didn’t matter and that I’m making a big deal over nothing so I decided to rip the bandaid off and tell her that I think it’s better if we distanced ourselves and she demanded that I stop the car and let her walk home but I wouldn’t make her walk to her apartment all by herself because it’s not safe yk, so I drove her the rest of the way home and she got out and slammed my car door.

And to make it better Lara sided with Julie saying that I can’t control what Julie says about me and I shouldn’t get so upset about it but this is the first time that I have spoken up about any of this or how she’s made me feel

But whatever I’m not going to stress about myself about this because I have some really big exams coming up and have to focus my energy there, I just really hope that things between me and this guy aren’t awkward because I still want to be friends with him 😭

🫧 anon

wooooooooooooooow. bad news, you lost some friends. good news, you don't have to waste your time on bad friends.

i would tell the dude straight up: 'i don't know why j said that, but it made me very uncomfortable and i'm sorry if it made you uncomfortable too, but i'd still like to be friends.' one thing i've learned and it's the most real shit ur gonna hear from me is::

things are only awkward if you make them awkward.

julie is insecure and it'll ruin a lot of relationships in her life, if laura thinks she's safe, she's not. now you're not around on the chopping block, laura will be.

good luck on exams and hoping that boy will brush it off and keep chilling w you!

[croissantbae]

4.8.22

I see the light. We got back from our vegas vacation and I was a bit scared we were going to come back having not slept for 4 days straight but actually the girls slept relatively well! I was traumatized from the lake arrowhead trip bc Dani didn’t sleep at all when we went bc she just seemed too excited to be in the bed w us. But this trip it was ok. Dani still needs someone to carry her for a little bit first just to get her drowsy enough but then she’ll sleep.

This trip to vegas was a lot of fun bc it was chill but there were plenty of things to do with the kids. It was pretty easy to keep them entertained. If Jason’s foot was better it would have been even better. I felt bad bc he seemed to be in a bit of pain.

I’m already thinking of what we should do for our next vacation but we can’t really take any time off during the girls’ summer break bc we’re taking so much time off for Korea.

A few observations:

1. Naya cried the first night we were in the hotel bc she said she needed to go to school and she said she missed her friends. When I said which friends she said “uhh… nela, uhh… somi.” But she knew she messed up bc neither of those friends are at her school and she hasn’t seen either of them in person in a year. Then the next day when we said we’re staying a few more nights she was crying about how she wanted to go to Halmuni’s house and thst she missed Shiloh. It was so weird bc she was having fun and getting to do all this stuff she was enjoying but she seemed afraid that we were moving there or something. On the final night we even planned on driving back early bc she was so sad abt it. But then night time came and Jason was tired so we were like we’re gonna stay here another night ok? And she seemed all cool abt it and even talked about wanting to stay longer / go back.

jason was saying how she’s so much like him in thst she gets so attached to places and things. It also made me think she’s quite fearful but I suppose when you’re a kid lots of things are scary bc you just don’t fully know what’s going on. In theory it’s sweet but my goodness she cried so much sometimes I was like sheeeezzzzhbhhhh.

2. Dani had at least one meltdown a day. Like SCREAMING at the top of her lungs in public. But she was doing that at home too and I just grew to not care too much abt it while in public. I can’t wait until s he’s out of her terrible two stage. But also she’s still so cute and funny to me.

3. Naya is so into princess stuff jason was like we gotta stop this nonsense. And now I’m starting to feel the same way. I was hoping that by indulging her she’d get sick of it or bored of it but there’s no sign of it yet.

Also not to brag but the girls are OBSSSSESSZZERDDDDDD W ME. To the point that when k was helping Dani w something naya had to keep a hand on me and Jason had to tell her a few times to give me space and to seriously just like back off lol. She also told me today that when she grows up she wants to be a mommy. She also said that her doll ks a baby and she’s like a mommy. And k said when then I’m a grandma. I find it cute she’s so soft and sentimental but also slightly worrying lol. I also sense, though, that when she goes through her teen years the pendulum is going to swing hard in the other direction and she’s going to like revile me or something (please no).

4. I can see how in 2 years time when naya is 6 and Dani is 4, vacations are going to be really enjoyable and fun bc the kids will still want to hang w us but will be so much easier to manage.

[miintsprigz]

Reblogging my own post to add onto it.

Things I specifically loved at the 4/28/24 Hadestown show. I knew the original myth and had heard a few pieces of the songs via TikTok, but this was my first time hearing it in full. I’m gonna go in soundtrack order because I’m tired now and I get order mixed up.

LONG POST BELOW and LET THERE BE SPOILERS!

-“AIGHT!”

-Eurydice is dressed in shorter overalls from the beginning and “always has the fates following her”…gosh don’t you hate it when Doomed, can’t even let this woman CANDLE in peace. she was always meant to go down there. And stay down there.

-I haven’t seen a SINGLE person talk about Yaya Reich’s version of Eurydice?! She’s excellent!!! I really love her hair, legit debated trying to style mine like hers

-I 100% understand what Eurydice sees in Orpheus. Gosh what a dork. I love him. I also 100% understand what Orpheus sees in Eurydice because HAVE I MENTIONED YAYA IS BEAUTIFUL

-Hermes gives me uncle vibes in the most comforting way imaginable.

-Persephone kinda gives me Tinkerbell vibes, the way she dances is so great. Woman EMBODIES life of the party.

-Her dance when Way Down Hadestown begins—she like bent at the waist, sort of shimmying side to side. It’s like she was being pulled down by Hades. So creepy, I love it.

-“I missed ya.” Philip Boykin’s delivery of that gave me Audrey II vibes.

-Orpheus visibly phasing in and out of Hadestown as he worked on the song…I’ve never seen a better representation of an artist getting completely swallowed whole by their work. The scared “is he always like this?” from Eurydice chilled me. Sometimes we’re in too deep…

-All these performers getting YEETED across the stage by the turntable/rotating stage/I dunno jargon was crazy. I would have fallen like 54 times.

-The way I audibly went “oh no” as Eurydice was pretty much attacked by the Fates. I see those three as the true villains here. Love it when your own mind tries to bite you.

-“Orpheus, I’m hungry…” the fact that Eurydice is so destitute for most of this show BREAKS MEEEE

-The intro to “Wait For Me” will never not frick me up. “Where is she…?”

-I didn’t know how to feel about Eurydice choosing to go down to Hades. But with what little we know of her past, it makes some good sense to me. She’s used to moving when the going gets tough and people left her a lot. Sure, Orpheus was different, but one person isn’t enough to change a lifelong foundation of behavior, and when people are stressed they’re even more likely to fall into old behaviors…I’m getting too psychoanalytical oops.

-The set BREAKING APART when Orpheus sings that melody. My gosh, I felt my mouth drop open. I couldn’t stop thinking about it. The staging of this whole song was awesome.

-I know now that “there’s a crack in the wall!” in “our lady of the underground” is meant to be a peep show but seeing her reach up for the light made me kind of sad. Like she’s trying to reach and touch the world she loves.

-“Flowers” is one of the most underrated songs in this show, PERIOD. I got REKT. The fact that she REMEMBERS ORPHEUS’ KINDNESS EVEN THOUGH SHE FORGOT BOTH THEIR NAMES. NO IM NOT OK

-The gags in Come Home With Me (Reprise) had me rolling honestly. “No I walked” (points to aisle)

-The fight scene during Papers was genuinely super cool to me.

-“Nothing Changes” makes me think this show could really be used as a lesson not to let the cruel and twisted voices in your mind result in you leading to a tragedy by your own actions/inactions at times…but don’t get down on yourself for what you did before you knew better.

-If It’s True is CRUSHING. EMOTIONAL DAMAGE!

-Kinda got irked that Orpheus almost gave up here, but to be fair, this dude just got 1.) beaten up 2.) EMOTIONALLY DUNKED ON by hades. Probably the worst day of his life.

-“How Long?” Having them stand on either side of the hole, with O, E, and the workers going down in there…it’s like the riot is driving a wedge between the two of them. And ya know, sometimes you gotta tear it all down before you can rebuild.

-YOUNG MAAAAN GOT TA HAND IT TO YA—

“Keep your head” takes on a different meaning—don’t let them get inside your head, “take” your head…”keep” it, keep YOURSELF!

-Me: “the Epic is probably gonna be cheesy.”

Me after Epic III: “cheesy? Yeah a little. Still stunning? YEEAAAAH”

-The fact that the Fates themselves fall in line during Epic III, and follow the other characters for once. I know they were canonically probably biding their time, but I like to think Orpheus’ song was so good on this run that he BENT FATE TO HIS WILL. And that’s why, even though this has been a never-ending loop, Persephone comes down for springtime! He DID change something, he BENT FATE. HEAR. ME OUT.

-Hades’ shaky singing. Listen, he’s done bad stuff but I just thought “aw buddy”…

-Hades’ goofy dancing made him a lot more likeable to me.

-Idk why, I wasn’t big on Promises or Wedding Song as a whole—not like I hated em, I loved this whole show, those songs just didn’t light my brain up as much. I’m a lunkhead, so that doesn’t mean much. Don’t listen to me—

-The fact that HADES HIMSELF is swayed by the Fates—the Fates are literally responsible for driving (albeit not causing, note the difference) every single bad thing that happens—Eury going down, Hades making the catch, Orph TURNING—COME ON. Great theme that no one is without flaw.

-Personally, I love how done Hermes is with this plot from Hades. You can see how sick he is of seeing this same exact thing happen again and again.

-Again, Hermes tells it like it is. The doubt, the insecurities of the cast, they’re the real “villain” here. Not the gods. The sadistic Fates. And the fact that people can’t HELP but listen.

-Wait For Me Reprise is great. Send tweet.

-The staging for the walk up is great. The mist, the complete blackness representing the inner mind of Orpheus.

-The fact that The Fates PHYSICALLY get in between Orpheus and Eurydice. What a great visual metaphor. She’s talking to him the whole time and HE CANT HEAR HER!!! Because they’re held so much closer than even his love. He’s not doing it on purpose, it’s just human nature.

-There’s a whole group with her too, I swear the ensemble choir here comes through with this message of the people you surround yourself with rubbing off on you (like E dancing with them in Living It Up) but there comes a point where you get so drowned in your own thoughts that even a whole crowd can’t reach you…

-People have suggested Orpheus’ wavering could have to do with him literally losing himself from all the time he’s spent in Hadestown. He didn’t sign his soul away, so I know it doesn’t really count, but…I could kinda see it.

-I knew, I KNEW what was coming. And I was STILL HORRIFIED. The way she GASPS. The immediate relief that changes to horror as he realizes his desperation to see if she was really there is her ultimate doom. The woman he loved more than anything, and he’s sent her to her demise, once, twice, and FOR GOOD. All with the best intentions. They do indeed pave the road to hell.

-The ending positions. He’s forever looking down. Head down in despair. Unable to see the world as it could be anymore. And her? She’s just GONE.

-Jon Jon’s Hermes looked so DONE. His “aight?” Sounded like “okay, kiddo. You didn’t get it this time either. But it’s okay, because I’m going to keep singing it until you get it.” I was concerned they’d go right into the same opening version, knowing that would jolt me right out of immersion. That did NOT happen.

-Man I wanna give this whole cast a big hug. They want a happy ending so bad, and so do I. I’m gonna keep singing. Let’s all keep singing. Maybe one day, Orpheus won’t turn around. See the world for what it could be, in spite of the way that it is.

Raise a cup. For the Orpheus in all of us. Who will turn, again and again, but we keep on singing. Keep on weaving our masterpieces, trying to heal our world, and maybe, maybe one day, heal ourselves.

Okay it’s 1am, I need to sleep. Thank you for reading.

Just want to say I saw Hadestown for the first time tonight and I LOVED IT!

[wanderingpogue]

Surprise (Pt I)

Warnings: mentions of unprotected sex, swearing maybe?

(Not yet proofread)

You and JJ had always been best friends, with something more between the two of you. You decided to test the waters by making out in secret. That turned into hooking up and then into secretly dating. You hid your relationship from the rest of the group for close to a year.

One day you woke up feeling off & everyone, JJ included, could tell.

“You good, y/n?” JJ looked at you with concerned eyes, knowing something was going on.

“I’m fine, I’ve just been super exhausted. Probably just trying to come down with a cold or something.” You shrugged it off, trying not to put too much thought into it. Everyone just went about their business as usual. Everyone except Kie.

Kie pulled you aside and whispered, “how late are you, idiot?”

You look at her all puzzled, “what are you talking about?”

“Look, I’m not as dumb as the rest of them. I’ve known about you two for months. And I’ve noticed a shift in you for the past couple of weeks. Somethings different. And have you seen your tits? I’m just hoping there’s not a baby Maybank swimming in your belly. Now tell me, how late are you?” Kie’s hushed tone was now tainted with worry.

You had to take a moment to really think, the worry now starting to set into your mind. You were barely able to get your response out, “i don’t even know, Kie. I can’t even remember my last period. Maybe 2 months ago? He pulls out though...There’s no way...”

Kie rolls her eyes and tries not to let you see her laugh, “Yeah, because that’s always so reliable, huh?”

You cupped your face with your hands & let out a huff of air, “Shit, what do I do Kie?”

You’d been so wrapped up with kiara, that you didn’t even notice JJ watching the two of you during the entire conversation, his mind now flustered, wondering what could be going on.

“Everything ok?” JJ asked, as he casually slung his arm around you, causing you to snap out of your concerned state.

“Never better, Maybank.” You managed to get out, flashing him a short but sweet smile, temporarily putting his mind at ease. He looked at you suspiciously, but eventually let it go. He sauntered off toward Pope and John B, who had now made their way out to the pier for some fishing, “Whatever, weirdo,” he called out as he looked back and winked at you.

As you watched JJ walk away, you couldn’t help but feel a twinge of hope. Was it hope that you weren’t pregnant? Hope that you were? You didn’t know. JJ just felt like home to you and that alone gave you peace.

You were interrupted from you thoughts by Kie, who threw your purse at you on her way out of the door with the keys to the Twinkie. “C’mon, y/n! We’re going to the store!” She yelled as she made her way to the vehicle.

“What for?”

“What do you think, y/n? I’m gonna make you pee on a stick, that’s what for.”

-

While you and Kie were gone, the boys did some fishing, JJ bringing you up every chance he got.

“I hope y/n is feeling ok. She seemed off this morning...and come to think of it, every morning for almost a month...”

“Dude, chill? What could possibly be wrong?” John B said cooly as he took another sip of his beer.

“Why are you so worried? It’s y/n. She’s tough. Like she said, it’s probably just a cold coming on.” Pope reassured JJ before casting out his fishing line.

“I don’t know guys. I’ve noticed a lot of things different about her lately. She sleeps so much more, stays in the bathroom, barely wants to eat - but when she does she really EATS, she’s so grouchy...,” JJ trails off, his eyes widen as his mind begins to put the pieces together.

“Ok, and? It’s probably just her period or something. Doesn’t that make girls get all weird? Why do you care anyway?” John B’s voice holding a bit of suspicion as he watches JJ’s expression change.

“I don’t. I just hope she’s not sick, that’s all.” JJ said quickly and left it at that, never bringing you up again.

Pope shot John B a look of confusion before laughing it off.

The boys continued to fish, JJ doing his best to keep his mind from wandering.

-

Upon your arrival back to the chateau, Kie quickly stuffed the grocery store bag of pregnancy tests into your purse before getting out of the Twinkie, “go straight to the bathroom. Text me when your done & I’ll come meet you in there. I’m gonna go hang with the guys for now.” She gave you a quick kiss on the cheek and took off, hoping the boys wouldn’t think anything of your trip to the store.

You walk into the bathroom and open up the first test with your hands shaking uncontrollably.

“Here goes nothing...” you whisper as you begin to pee, making sure to collect enough on the test, “ok, wait 3 minutes...3 minutes. I got this.”

You put the test on the counter and sat back down. Then you waited.

3 minutes had passed but you couldn’t bring yourself to look, you texted Kie, who was out at the pier with the guys, to come and read it for you.

Kie was sitting next to JJ, her phone beside her on the dock. JJ heard a message come through and instinctively looked down at the phone.

New Message from Y/N:

Kie, it’s been 3 minutes but I can’t do it. You have to come see what it says for me, please.

JJ’s eyes widened and kiara tried to grab her phone before he could register what the message said, but it was too late. He saw. And he knew.

“I’m coming with you, don’t make a scene,” he whispered urgently as he stood with Kie.

There was nothing she could’ve said to stop him.

You heard a knock on the bathroom door and knew it had to be Kie, so you opened it quickly. There he was, face as pale as a ghost.

“Oh, hey...” you said shyly, looking down at your feet.

“Y/n, why didn’t you tell me?” He was hurt and you knew it.

“J, I promise, this wasn’t even a thought to me until Kie made me buy the test. And now I’m too scared to even look,” you laughed a bit at how silly you sounded and so did he. Kie stood in the hall, not wanting to interrupt.

“Well, do you want me to look?” JJ asked, his voice shaking.

“We’ll look together. 1...2...3...” you counted, grabbing the test on 3.

There it was, plain as day.

POSITIVE.

“What are we gonna do, y/n?” JJ asked, his arms going around your waist, pulling you to him.

“We’re gonna have a baby, J. That’s what we’re gonna do...”

The two of you couldn’t help but smile a little. Sure, you were terrified. But you also knew there was no one else in this world either of you would rather do this with.

“Now comes the really hard part...” JJ smirked

“What’s that?” You asked curiously.

“Telling the others,” JJ swallowed loudly, trying to be dramatic. He kissed you on the forehead, “but that can wait a while, I just want it to be our thing for now.”

“What about me?!” Kie asked jokingly, “can’t auntie Kie be in on this ‘thing’ too? I am the one that made her take the test,” she rolled her eyes, walking over to give you a hug.

The three of you stood there, basking in your newfound excitement. Unsure of what the future would hold, but confident you’d make it through anything together.

[doomdoomp3]

Step by Step (Jonghyun x Reader) - Chapter 7

Story Type: College AU; 2nd person Characters: Jonghyun x Reader Genre: fluff, romance Summary: You’re in Law School and live in a big house with some of your classmates. The boys live downstairs and the girls on the second floor. You’re not too close with some of them, especially with the guys. But then, Easter is here and you can’t go home to visit your parents, neither Jonghyun can go. That’s when you two start to get closer.

Thursday, 10:30am. You only have one class in the afternoon so you were sleeping a little bit more than the usual but suddenly your phone started to ring non stop. You didn't see who was calling, just answered with a completely sleepy voice, looking like a zombie, trying to finish that soon as possible and come back to your dreams.

"Hm? Yes?"  

"Wake up, sunshine."

"Who's it?"  

"It's me!"  

"Me who?" - You rubbed your eyes and looked to the phone screen, trying to come back to life and see the name there. - "Jonghyun... why are you calling me? Let me sleep."  

"You're accepting calls without seeing who is it calling? Oh, that hurt my feelings."

"I was sleeping ok? And you wouldn't stop calling me, so... what do you want?"  

"I want you to open the chat and see your messages. Quickly." - And just like that he hung up the phone.  

"God…" - You sighed. - "What an educated man we have here."  

He sent so many messages, you were shocked with that, maybe something have happened and you didn't know, so you sat on the bed to process the situation.  

Jonghy said: Morning, sunshine   Jonghy said: Wake up, let's go out for lunch ^^   Jonghy said: Wake up :(((   Jonghy said: I'm hungry  

You started to laugh reading his messages. It was 10am boy, calm down. Go eat something, it's not time for lunch yet.

Jonghy said: if you don't wanna go with me ok, fineee  

What a desperate man. It must me his stomach talking (or not).  

Jonghy said: come on :( I know a nice and new place we could check :(   Jonghy said: Y/N wake uuup!!   Jonghy said: I'm gonna call you   *1 missed call from Jonghy*  

You were typing to answer him and another message arrived.

Jonghy said: I know you've read it so come quickly, baby I'm waiting for you in the car

And then a picture pops up. It was him wearing all black, with his favorite red cap, inside the car waiting for you. Not even smiling, just with a soft look, calling for you. Your heart skipped a beat seeing that, he's confusing your head and heart. The anger you were feeling when he woke you up has faded away, just like magic. You had to tap your phone screen twice before it locked because you didn't even know what to answer or how to act after that.  

"First of all, you're so desperate, dude chill!! lol second of it, where are we going? I hope it’s a 5 star place. I'm going to get ready now, it might take a few minutes so don't lose your patience and wait for me. Btw where are you? Aron's car, right? I'll let you know when I'm ready ;)" - You typed back.  

You went to the bathroom and bumped into your friend Rosie in the corridor. She got surprised to see you awake at that time in the morning.

"What happened, Y/N? Is there a monster in your bed? Why are you up already?" - She asked.

"No..." - You laughed after a long sigh. - "Jonghyun just called me. He needs me to do something." - She would mock you if you have said the truth.

"Oh. That's why he was so dressed up. It says a lot." - You entered the bathroom, giving her a suspicious face, thinking about what she meant by that but you decided to let it go.

Soon you went back to your room, you saw a notification coming up in your phone again and yes, it was the most anxious boy in town.

Jonghy said: 5 star?? what do you think I am?? I'm not an heir. But once I get more money I'll take you to one, don't worry :)   Jonghy said: you're taking too long... I'm getting bored   Jonghy said: and tired  

For a few seconds, you really thought about not going just because he was rushing you as if he was dying there. But he was being such a sweetheart to you with no reason and it was better to go see what was his deal.

"I'm goinggg!! Stoppp!!! I'm trying to get ready, don't rush me!! Just a little bit more and I'll be there. Don't die, for god's sake!" - You've sent that to him and JR just replied with a bunch of the pleading face emoji that you could visualize him doing that.

20 minutes have passed and you were leaving the house in a rush, all clumsy with your purse and keys, trying not to drop your phone while texting Jonghyun saying that you were ready to go. You stepped outside and almost got a heart attack. He was right by the door, leaning against the wall, looking at you with such an appealing look.

"Jesus Christ, Kim Jonghyun!" - You put your hands on your chest, scared, shaking a little bit.

"I'm sorry." - He bent down to pick up your keys, feeling regretful for his actions but also laughing at your reaction. - "I didn't mean to scary you."  

"But you did! I thought you were in the car, I wasn't expecting you here." - With a saddening tone of voice, you explained yourself, making him feel bad for you.

"Sorry again!" - He made an adorable face. JR wanted to give you a hug but didn't know how to so he just patted your back as if you were just a kid.

"Yeah, ok. But hey, let's go. You were in such a hurry to go eat, what are we waiting for?"

"Yep!" - Both of you were heading to the car. - "You look stunning, by the way!" - He stepped back for a second, feeling flustered for what he has said.

You were wearing a white shirt with a denim jacket and light beige dress pants, you hadn't given much thought to the look itself, just went with your basic stuff. A compliment wasn't something you would expect to receive.  

"Thank you!" - You smiled back to him as he hurried to try to be a gentleman and open the door for you. - "So do you!" - You didn't just say that out of politeness.

He smiled back to you, finally getting into the car, driving you both to the restaurant.